To whom it may concern...

i dont want to lose you, been through too much, seen too much, your my best friend, the only friend i'd really had, someone that was there. theres to eyes in this controversy, and im not gonna say im the rightful one..of course i feel like a ton of shit right now and i dont want to. i dont know whats gonna happen, but i dont want to lose a friend, a best friend to me in fact, not like this. whatchu said the other day, at the end, really shattered me, and i couldnt take it, i didnt know what to do, and i didnt know what to say. like i said though, please dont think of me as bullshit, everybody makes wrongs and rights...despite all of this, i still be here for you, your friendship will still be with me.

The 3 day weekend

The weekend to start it off was a tad bit lazy for me, or a lot actually. I stayed home and played one the computer all day long, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday..well, half of Monday. I didnt do anything "nice" this weekend.

So like, i wasnt lying.

Im really not at prom, like i told you so, but im hoping all of you guys have the best of time tonight!

Senior Prom

So yea guys, like i said before, im not going to prom, and i really did kept to my word for those who thought i was just kidding. I know most of you guys will say, "dude, its senior year!!!" to me,, thats just a lame excuse, or not enough of one. Money is such a bitch, and organizing it as well. I had to tell my date that im sorry i cant go, so i let her go, and i felt hella bad. I hope you guys have fun out there without me.
HAVE FUN!!!

This weekend so far..

Damn, last saturday was hot as hell! I played badminton, and it didnt feel right, i didnt even wanted to play for real. After that i went to the park and played volleyball, and like badminton, it didnt feel right. I was dying in the scorching heat, like uggggggghhh!!!

Sunday i stayed home all day playing Megaman!!! aahahahahaaa!!

This weekend is pretty fine, pretty plain, and not exciting. Yesterday however, was our panoramic pictures, and I DID NOT EVEN KNOW!!! It was hella funky cause we didnt do the long streched out one, we did a "09", which was pretty neat. GOOD JOB GUYS!

Man, i have this hella fail ass project for econ...gotta get a Resume, Recognition Letter, and a "Skill Evaluation Sheet". THIS...HELLA...REEKS!!

And i rode my bike to school this morning, and fell of my bike because my foot got stuck on my toe clips!! ahahahahahaa!!! IDKY, i was lol at myself...
FAIL

Damn, i cant remeber the last time i did this. I think this was freshman year, and only using crayola color pencils! ahahahahha! Theres not much to say, but this shit was a pain to do.

Damn, this picture of Ichigo Hollow took me 7 hours... >>;;

I hatched it on the dark side, and it was a pain in the but because my hand was crampin like fuck! This is one of my best art that i have done on my own time.

Well, this is my Crossed Hatched Polar Bear i finishes on monday 2 days ago. It shocked me caused i thought it would have taken longer.

Hope you like it!! =D

Movies and Quotes

Famous Quotes and more!

Einstein
Before God, we are equally wise - and equallyfoolish.
I know not with what Weapons of WW3 will be fought, but WW4 will be with sticks and stones.
I never think of the future - it comes soon enough.
Imagination is more important than knowledge.
The important thing is to not stop questioning.

Ben Franklin
A country man between two lawyers, is like a fish between two cats.
A good conscience is a continual christmas.
All will live long, but none will live old.
Beware of the young doctor, and the old barber.
Drive the business, or it will drive thee.

Mark Twain
A man cannot be comfortable withouit his own approvle.
I'll tell you the truth, you dont have to remember anything.
It is easier to stay out than get out.
The worst loneliness is not to be comfortable with yourself.
Truth is more of a stranger than a fiction.


Life
The purpose of life is to fight maturity.
Life is just one damn thing after another.
Life is somehitng that happens when you cant go to sleep.
Life is a sexually transmitted disease.
Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what your going to get. ~ Forrest Gump

My Hobbies

• Fixie ~ hit me up
• Volleyball ~ wanna see me onda courts niggeh!?
• Snowboarding ~ iBOMBblackDiamonds
• MMA & Tae Kwon Do ~ bring it
• Piano ~ teach me more!
• Badminton ~ lets gooooo!!

there are many more, but these are the passions.

This weekend so far

Man, this weekend is as boring as any other weekend. I had a presentation i have better pass! I finished my artwork, and got one of my other artwork into the art show and I'm proud. Downloaded like, 70+ more songs onto my ipod. Got to do so many errands soon...stupid senior year.. Shoo, Wednesday was a pretty happy day for me, went riding and saw some people that made me smile. I then went to John Muir and saw my Lil' "cousin", ahah, its been like, a year i think.

Well, despite the ups and downs, I'm in class right now...blogging. Excuse some of the last blogs, those were for school, ahahahha!

OVER & OUT YEEEE!!

SUSPENSION?!?!?!??!

whaaaaaaat thhhheeeeeee fuuuuucckkkk!? Tell me why last night my mom goes and tell me, "why do you have a suspension?" i was like wtf man?! She siad the paper said i failed to do my detention by defiance? I think i've already served something like that, lol! But still, i did not do anything. So just before school like and hour ago, i went to the AP and talked to one of them. I told them i had a suspension notice for thursday and friday. So they tell me, was i sent in the AP office [and at that time, i was thinking about a different detention. lol]? So they say, "anytime a kid is brought to the AP office, they always get a detention slip, or any notice." So then they took out the slip that my name was on, i then i found out this fuckin niggeh tried to doop me by putting my name on the goddamn paper!!! Like ohhhh emmmmm geeeee!! So the this niggeh put my name on the Tardy Sweep and therefore "I" got in trouble... So then they told me to write my name on a piece of paper to confirm "truthfulness." So then i did and it wasnt enough for them. I had my artwork at the time, so then one of them just grabbed it and confirm my truthfulness. Damn, this shit is hella whack, and this school is fuckin full of knobs!!

A Place I've Always Wanted To Go To

Dang, this place, is truly something. You know how everyone says they want to go to a beach and like look at the sunset? Well yea, mines something like that. There is a shoreline streched across Sonoma County State Beach and the views are spectacular. The water has a nice colour to it, not like Alemeda's beach or whatever its called... White as can be sand, crasahing waves and even the giant boulders are beautiful, lol!! I wish to go there with my "special someone", someday, i'll walk the beach, holding your hand away into to sunset; waves crashing inot our feet [ahahah, sooo cheeeezzaaay!!!]. Never the less, this is what i want, or would love something like this to happen.

My High School Experience

Oh dagnabbit! Shoo, the past was ridiculous!! SOOO much mischief and hatred around freshman year and sophomore year. Throughtout the years, it was not bad, but not good either. Ive made so many mistakes that i really regret, and that i wish i havent had those things. Choosing classes that went to be pointless because that teacher had gotten fired the next year, or taking a class that you've knowned you shouldn't ahve tooken cause you knew you was going to fail it. Everything there for a reason i guess, as my coach would say it. Junior was the start of everything. I started to get out of the house more often, becuase my mom is being less protective about me gettin raped in San Leandro, ahahhhaa! Yea, lifes great when you can go to your friends house or kick it with some hommies at the school or anywhere. Then comes the drugs and alcohol, well just drugs, because my dads a beast and he lets me drink, wooot yea! Drugs was my own doing, wasnt anyone elses, my friends dont pressure me, so it was never their fault. But ever since then, ive smoked, but not like a friggen addict, not even close. Then came senior year, the best of all, the creme de la creme, lmfao! Everything is fun in senior year i tell ya that, its just like the feeling of your last year, and being a senior. Ive also made mistakes in this year, but i try not to let it be my downfall. I got a Fixie for my 17th bday fro my dad, so then i started to ride with my friends to go to places. Senior year has been tough on me though, managaing money, or turning in papers, or the last month! I mean, shoo, senior year aint that easy! I dont have a job because of badminton season, but when i do, it'll be the start of a new life. Senior prom is a bitch becasue I AM NOT going! I have no money, and if i did, there is this girl im hoping to ask, and she is something special like no other. I really fucked up in the past, but all i would like to do is graduate. :)

My Family

holy...damn... my family?! my family is not even close to awesome. I have a bad life, with a mom that doesnt care for her son anymore, no more happy birthday on my birthday since i was 5 years old, and never had a bday party since 5 too. In my life i have so much drama going on, drama that not only affect me, but the whole family. Drama that will never escape because its that scar, that will make me reminisce. My family is a piece of shit man, always having these dumbass problems, and draging me into it. The only thing that really keeps me going is my dad. He is my support, my mentor, and my father. Throughout the years, ive became more like him, as in of doing the hobbies he likes to do. Although sometimes hes a pain in the ass, i dont know what i'll do without him. I just wish my family, was more like a family.

Saturday & Sunday Morning Dive

Went to Sonoma County again to go abalone diving and geoduck diggin'. it was actually great because i wasnt gettin' washed away by the waves...lol i made my quota and got my 3. We then went to Bodega Bay and dug for Geoduck, but the itde was up. We then rushed our asses to dig for as many as we can, and we did..we actually did pretty good knowing that the water moved about 10 feet in 30 minutes.

The only thing tha sucked that day was that being in my wet suit with shoulder blistering sunburn! ><

My Career

My career goal i life is to be a technician, meachanic, and an engineerer. Every single piece of technology that ceist to exist in this worl intrues me. I just grew up loving it, i dont know why, i love how more hi-tech things grow and grow. I always wonder how their built, and what they do. Technology is something to recon with, dont mess with it, its too valuable. I love to create things, and fix things, so that kind of explains things.

Post High School Education

When i was a youngin', my dreams of college was to go to MIT [massachusetts institute of technicians]. That was a really big dream to accomplish even for the brightess of kids. MIT is in Boston Massachusetts that is surrounded by buildings and lively environment. My career i life is to be a technician, mechanic, and an engineerer. MIT's teachings are advance knowledge of science and technology. When i was litte, technology always have caught my eye . This dream was kept until the Freshman year, when i wsant sucessful.

Volleyball at Halcyon Park

Man o' man, did i lay a whoopin on everyone that was there. Basically throughout the whole day, i was unblockable yet the "roofer" at the same time, and soo many digs and saves. The only thing that sucked was the friggen wind...i couldnt set so good, but like in volleyball, "its not the setters fault, its the hitters" - because they are the ones that are suppose to make the adjustment. I didnt put on sunblock...i thought i didnt got sunburn until the nest day.

overall, this day was so great.

Volleyball at Halcyon Park

anyone wanna join?
we playin at 1 p.m.
i mean, if ya wanna lose, just come and play.
ahha, were friendly and we wont bite, its a community thing and everyones welcome, so come and join us.

p.s. - ill tell you if id destroyed someone today! ;D

Tackle Football on Friday at John Muir Middle School

shiet, i was lookin forward to this all weekend cause of the rain last week. We had a good ammount of kidz this time, but then they hella flaked and started playing tennis >>;; thanks alot guys. so man, im tellin you, we started of good, i ran some fuckin kidz over, got me a TD, and 2 TD passes, with a fumble recov. it was all great until this fat niggeh tackled me the wrong way...he fuckin jump and kicked me of kneed me on my right hip bone, and it fuckin sent shock waves thru my right side..i coodnt walk so stright for about 15 mins, and then got back into the game. it was an ok day, cept the fact people kept flakin on us.

we then started to play tennis and kidz were ridin on my Fix. i was playing with Cliffy because he was the only one decent enough for a rally, but not with the injury. overall, it was and ok day.

HAAL at Castro Valley High

Geezus, the day has come, everyone is juiced, yet soo scared. Seeing all my friends for the last time was a happy yet sad moment i can say, its my last year, and i got to make the best of it. Steven and I together was playing Men's Doubles at Varsity Ranked 1, and Men's Doubles were up first.

Steven and I played Tennyson High's Var.2, and we better have won. We played them 2 sets and beat them, but we didnt do it the way we wanted it to go. I missed great opportunities, and Steven hit some out shots. I swear man, i was soo pissed because they were calling bullshit and calling "in" shot out!! it was not the best way to beat a team, but it was a win.

Shhiiiieeeeett! We had Mt. Eden's Var.2 next, and Mt. Eden is the beastiest team in the league. The first set, we didnt try, the second set, we started to play more serious because we were pissin' off their coach!! lmfao! So we took a lose, a knew they were going to pull us into consolation. ;D

i swear, my mind just went blank here, i forgot who we played next, but all i know is we then played Arroyo's Var.2 and Moreau Catholic Var.1.

When we played Arroyo, man o' man, first set did we played sooo well. Then the second set came, like wtf...wth happened?! We lost the fuckin' set!!! I was dissapointed because we were making unenforced errors... Then the third set came, and i really wanted to win this, i mean, they gave us a run for our money. We somehow came back from about a 5 point defecit, then took the lead, and dodge a fuckin' bullit.

We have now made it to Semi-Finals in Consilation brackett, up next, Moreau Catholic's Var.1. I knew this was going to be a tough one, it was something everyone was looking for at the moment. we played the first set, and lost but got a decent amount of score. Then the second set came, and we wanted this baaad! We pulled of a miracukous win, Steven fuckin' hacked it over and got the split!!!!! so we then wen to the 3rd set, and at this point, i fuckin' wanted it! Confidence level rosed up, then at the break, it was 11[MC]-7[SL]...i was like, wtf man?! They were playing 4 corners and picked on Stevens back corner. We then ended up losing, and that was a very sad, mad, and dissapointing thing that happened for me. I went back to our bleachers, and just didnt knew what to do. i then went to the go look at the bracketts on the wall, and realized that we were the semi-final game, and that if we would have won[which we should have] we would have had a safe-guard and made it to NCS[North Coast Section - state champs]. Then at that moment, i felt like shit.

The one thing i was looking forward in the beginning of the school year was to make it to NCS as my Senior goal for badminton, but was crushed.

HAAL was fun while it lasted, im going to miss a lot of you guys, hope you guys suceed, and the best of luck to the HAAL winners.